but I'm taking it back
Published on February 28, 2006 By Charissa Kaschel In Misc
He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. My sense of safety, my sense of security. Now I can't sleep at night without checking all the doors and windows. Anytime I hear a noise I think, could it be him again. He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. Now I"m afraid no matter where I go, I don't feel safe in my own home. My once peaceful sleep is now tormented. He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. I worry every day, will my son be safe. will i have to worry about him. Would he really go that far. He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. NOw I toss and turn in sleepless nights, my sleep is tortured, I'm alone, it's dark, is he there. He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. The dogs bark and my skin crawls. I'm constantly looking over my shoulder, checking my drink. He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. My safety, my security, my life, my body.

I'm taking it from him. and it's mine to take. I want my security, my safety, my life, my body. I'm taking it from him and it's mine to take. if only it were that easy, to not be afraid. To feel safe in my home, in my bed, with my son. I'm taking it from him and it's mine to take. To not have to look over my shoulder, to trust, to love.

I'm taking it from him and it's mine to take. oh if only I could.

Ah to sleep again.

Comments
on Feb 28, 2006
Bad him
But good you, take back what's yours.
on Feb 28, 2006
I wish it was so simple. But it takes a long process of healing emotionally and physically.
on Feb 28, 2006
I didn't mean to imply it was simple, just trying to applaud your apparent commitment to heal.
on Feb 28, 2006
I didn't think that's what you were implying.. .I was merely... thinking ouloud.
on Mar 03, 2006
I think this is a great step forward in your healing process. I have some resources that might be able to assist you, if you are interested. Dan knows my email.