Unveiling the Mysteries of My Soul
Today I was reading my weekly chapter in "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldredge. This weeks chapter was about Alluring Beauty. About biblical seduction in relationship with your significant other/spouse and the differences between a Desolate woman, an Emasculating woman and an Alluring woman. So after I finished reading I was thinking about my pitfalls in relationships.
I thought back to my childhood when I constantly struggled with weight and self-confidence. There are many incidences that I can remember where certain comments made me constantly question whether or not I was beautiful. I can remember my mother saying "if you were any thinner we'd have to beat the boys off at the door" now keep in mind while no hurt was meant in that comment, everytime I've met a guy from then on, the solitary thought that runs through my mind is "am I skinny enough for him."
Today as I talked with my mother about this and just expressed how wounding those words were I felt released from all of those feelings of anger and resentment due to my fluctuating weight.
May I encourage you readers to look at the areas in your life that you are most insecure and look back to what wounding incidents occured to make you feel the way you feel. Now granted, not all my insecurity comes from that one comment, BUT, it's a start. Then we can journey through the healing process to become Alluring, Captivating Women.
by the way, reccomend the book highly to anyone interested.