I was thinking today about the loves in my life. Where did they all go? How did I end up so alone with noone to turn to? My favorite movie is You've Got Mail, and today I was thinking about why. What is it about the love between Joe and Meg that makes me wish it was mine?
Thus far in my 21 years, I"ve only known one true love. And somehow, whether it be because of me or him, he has left me. I know, they say young love can be strong but not steadfast. But I think I would disagree. Although he left me some time ago, my love for him has not changed. Even in all of though horrible things that happened, I still love him. How my heart aches, even though I know in my soul that he was not meant for me, in my heart, I'm not ready to let go.
What is it about the first love that makes it so heartwrenching? Do you remember your first love? Maybe, if you're fortunate, you are still with your first true love, but I think that for the majority, we've all moved on to a greater love. Some may question, "Will I ever love again?" or "is there hope for me?"
I would encourage you that there is, in time and pain. Love is not made up of flowers and teddy bears. It's made up of hurt, pain and forgiveness. Of relationships and loss. Perhaps we all just take the wrong approach to love. How can I love you if you aren't my friend? How can I love you if I never have the chance to trust you.
Yet, there is that part in all our hearts that dreams of that fairy tale love. The prince that comes to sweep us off our feet. The one that chooses us for himself. And yet we have that fairy tale love, if only we will wait. It all comes in time."