I've never been fired before in my life. I never really imagined being fired but figured if it ever came to that that it would be for a work related reason. I was fired this week for the following reasons: 1. I am incapable of making healthy decisions for myself and my son 2. I have allowed myself to be poisened by medical terminology 3. I have been let down by all the male figures in my life and so I have resistence to men 4. I've been "down" the last few weeks and a few patients notice...

Today I was reading my weekly chapter in "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldredge. This weeks chapter was about Alluring Beauty. About biblical seduction in relationship with your significant other/spouse and the differences between a Desolate woman, an Emasculating woman and an Alluring woman. So after I finished reading I was thinking about my pitfalls in relationships. I thought back to my childhood when I constantly struggled with weight and self-confidence. There are many incidences t...

He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. My sense of safety, my sense of security. Now I can't sleep at night without checking all the doors and windows. Anytime I hear a noise I think, could it be him again. He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. Now I"m afraid no matter where I go, I don't feel safe in my own home. My once peaceful sleep is now tormented. He took it from me and it wasn't his to take. I worry every day, will my son be safe. will i have to worry about him. Would h...

I dont think today could get much worse. a year ago january I was sexually assulted and the guy went to jail for a year. Today I went for my weekly lunch with my dad and who happened to be in the Olive Garden waiting area. HIM! My heart just about jumped out of my skin. My dad wasn't there yet and I had the baby with me so I just had to sit there and wait. Then, I just found out tha tmy friend steven who has been struggling with cancer died this morning. Ever feel like crawling into a hole an...

Have you ever known exactly what you wanted to do in life and had a pretty good idea that's what God wanted you to do.. but you aren't sure HOW IN THE WORLD IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN??? I mean... why does it take so long? why can't it be "poof" this is why we are here... I just don't get it sometimes...

so I found out today that my friend Steven who was diagnosed with cancer awhile back has taken a turn for the worst and they've given him 2-3 days to live. Something about death, it really affects me. I"m not afraid of death, I know my destiny. And I know his. I think it's the idea of the unknown. We never know when something could happen to us, or someone close to us that will be fatal. It's hard to know that death is something I can't control. THat there is nothing more that I can do for hi...

Did I ever tell you that Mrs. McCave had 23 sons and she named them ALL Dave? Well she did, and that wasn't a smart thing to do, You see when she wants one and calls out "yohooo come into the house Dave." all 23 Dave's of hers come on the run. This makes things quite difficult at the McCaves as you can imagine with so many Daves. And often she wishes that when they were born, she had named one of them Bodkin Van Horn. An one of them Hoos-Foos, and one of them Snimm, and one of them Hot-S...